Simply Millennial

You know how there are things you know about yourself, but it’s only when you pay attention to them they really exist? Sometimes I blow up or get really emotional, and then on the come down I say to myself, “You know how you get, so why do you let yourself get like that?”

I hate having this conversation with myself. For every moment I consider myself a logical thinker, there are five moments when I know I’m just an emotional retard.

So lately, I’ve recognized these conundrums I’ve been putting myself in and deciding that I’m going to catch them before they happen. For me, that means being vocal in silence and then shutting my mouth in the noise.

I had two synchronous moments a few weeks back that prompted the same idea. One moment was during the Ani DiFranco concert. I realized that even though it was very loud in the arena with the live music and the crowd’s reaction to it, I was personally having a moment of silence. There was a stillness coming from within while I was in this environment. The other moment was while listening to a new song that contains the lyric, “An uncomfortable silence can be so loud.” That line struck a chord with me because it’s so damn true.

Anyway, I realized how the two moments related, and it uncovered something that can help me in my emotional moments of madness: Observe the noise. Spew in silence.